I dun understand why....whenever i wanna blog.... i just cant type any words out. Thats why i decided to start with that sentence first....Alot of things to say but i dun know how to place everything together. Well, i'm depressed totally.......with works... and many other things!!
Lets start with Work...
Others maybe thinking... i'm working fine at my company now...but ..... I dun like the life of working AT ALL.... Being a junior designer is not as easy as i thought......EVERYDAY i will face comments...Fake one and true one. I hate it. I guess i'm a person that take words too easily..... I dun like the eyes she gave me....."GOU YEN KAN REN DI"
PLS STOP GIVING ME THAT KIND OF BLOODY HELL LOOK! Though i'm young, that's doesnt mean u can treat me like i dun know anything!!!
and oso
PLEASE DUN COMPARE!!!
Is not i dun know how to do....is just that i wanna make sure it is done this way.... Is not i am lazy.....is you never gave me a chance to do it on my own...... Is not i dun know anything......is you never believe in me
Is the hurt that i face....make me totally lost INTEREST in my job. I start to hate designing. I start to give crap. AND i start to lost confident in myself....Thats make u easily defeated me....
I just cant find the courage to stand out again....WIthout him with me is harder....I must be INDEPENDENT?!! But no one every gave me a chance...no one believe in me....no one understand how i felt when i actually cry is because " I AM ANGRY WHY YOU DUN GIVE ME TRY" and claim i dun know how to do anything LIKE I AM TOTALLY USELESS!!!
OH WELL, den just dun employ me.... ----------------------------------------
NOW COME TO FRIENDS
I dun wish to talk about it here. Coz is quite personal.
Zhang jie is in army..... but i really must Thanks this GIRL here for accompanying whenever i asked. Is LING LI!! THanks ling! For being with me everytime! I really appreciate it!!!!!! It makes my days brighter going out with u almost every fridae!!!
All i just wanna say, is PLs dun make use of me....i am a human not a thing!!! and i got feeling...Thanks!
Sign Off Beepeng
Here @ 8:48 PM
Me:
BeePeng
8 June 1987
True love is, when everything in the world is going wrong, all you have to do is look at that special person and, suddenly, everything in the world is right again."
