Wednesday, September 29, 2004
I lie awake at night
See things in black and white
I've only got you inside my mind
You know you have made me blind
I lie awake and pray
That you will look my way
I have all this longing in my heart
I knew it right from the start
* Oh my pretty pretty boy I love you
Like I never ever loved no one before you
Pretty pretty boy of mine
Just tell me you love me too
Oh my pretty pretty boy I need you
Oh my pretty pretty boy I do
Let me inside
Make me stay right beside you
I used to write your name
And put it in a frame
And sometime I think I hear you call
Right from my bedroom wall
You stay a little while
And touch me with your smile
And what can I say to make you mine
To reach out for you in time[Repeat *]Oh pretty boySay you love me too[Repeat *]
Here @ 11:54 PM
haiz........i cannot go msn.......dun know why.........maybe ganna virus liaoz........sad sia........haiz haiz haiz.......hmmmmm.....wanted to tell tricia sth todae....den cannot go msn!!!!! SAD......well i tell her tomorrow den......haiz....is it truth??? if it is i think i should avoid him le.........coz......frenz is more important..........HAIZ..i dun know lahz.......i feel so frustrated wif my com!! STUPID DIAN NIAO!!! WO HEN NI...HEN XI NI!!! lolz
Here @ 1:58 AM
Tuesday, September 28, 2004
HAIZ......is she attach to him le.....i doubt
todae check friendster...den found out her..."in a relationship" the first image that pop ups in my mind is HIM.......is HIM....i dun know is it him........even it is........oso not my problem but but but WHY.......i still feel kinda hurt........like a stab.....i dun know....i thought i grt over it liaoz.......haiz.......anyway bless them if they are really together.......yao xing fu
Here @ 1:25 AM
Saturday, September 25, 2004
My Friend when I think of you.I think of all that we've been through.All the times we argue and fight,I know deep inside that it isn't right.I, then feel bad and alot of pain.It feels like I've fallen from the sky like the rain.I love you dear friend with all of my heart.But now that you're gone I've fallen apart.I'm getting better as the days go by.I wish sometimes this was all a big lie.I pray to you every night.It's like you're my fire, a burning light. My dear friend, I miss you alot.I still wonder why you were put in that spot.I know you're in a place much better than here. Watching and helping me with all of my fear.Our friendship my dear friend,we will have to the end.Friends til the end is what we will be.Someday we'll be together,together you and me.
Here @ 3:19 PM
Friday, September 24, 2004
Whenever Sang My Songs
On The Stage On My Own
Whenever Said My Words
Wishing They Would Be Heard
I Saw You Smiling At Me
Was It Real Or Just My Fantasy?
You'd Always Be There In The Corner
Of This Tiny Little Bar
My Last Night Here For You,
Same Old Songs Just Once More
My Last Night Here With You?
Maybe Yes, Maybe No
I Kinda Liked It Your Way
How You Shyly Placed Your Eyes On Me
Oh, Did You Ever Know That I Had Mine On You*
Darling, So There You Are With That Look On Your Face
As If You're Never Hurt,
As If You're Never Down
Shall I Be The One For You
Who Pinches You Softly But SureI
f Frown Is Shown Then I Will Know That
You Are No Dreamer
*So Let Me Come To You,
Close As I Wanna Be
Close Enough For Me To Feel Your Heart Beating Fast
And Stay There As I Whisper,
How I Loved Your Peaceful Eyes On Me
Did You Ever Know That I Had Mine On You
Darling, So Share With Me Your Love If You Have Enough
The Tears If You're Holding Back
Or Pain If That's What It Is
How Can I Let You Know I'm More Than The Dress & The Voice
Just Reach Me Out And You Will Know That You Are Not Dreaming
Here @ 1:10 AM
Tuesday, September 21, 2004
"In a perfect world, when he's with her, he would be wishing he was with me; when he looked at her, he would be looking at me; when he smiled at her, his smile would be for me; when he thought about someone, he would be thinking about me. In a perfect world, he would realize that she wasn't the one he was supposed to be with and I would still be standing here waiting for him still when he finally knows this. But this isn't a perfect world and people do get hurt, you smile when you feel like crying, you act like you're okay when you're falling apart inside and you let it go. You move on, because there's nothing else you can do." ~Unknown
"Somehow, the conversation mentioned your name, and someone asked if I knew you. Looking away, I thought of all the times we had together, sharing laughter, tears, jokes, and tons more, and then with out an explanation you were gone. I looked to where they were waiting for an answer, and then said softly 'once... I thought I did.'" ~Unknown
"Sometimes I wake up crying at night and sometimes I scream out your name. What right does she have to steal your heart away when for so long you were mine? I remember when you were mine." ~Unknown
"I know as long as you are happy I can get through this, but it still kills me to see you with her. Not because she is perfect for you, not because she makes you smile, not because she is what you need, but because I know that she deserves you more than I do, and that pain is indescribable." ~Kate Russell
"When these days are gone, when all the love we gave to each other slowly fades away, when your beautiful smile is only here as a dream, and when the words 'I love you' are scripts of the past, I will always have the memories that were once moments, and I will always know that no matter what, I got the chance to be loved by you." ~Unknown
"The worst feeling in the world is to love and hate a person all in the same second." ~Unknown
Here @ 11:23 AM
I duN wIsH tO gO HoMe
i have enough of wat i got now....really enough....sick of my parents...and sick of my sister......haiz...i always get scolding for no reason....since they hate me so much...may as well dun give birth to me....WHY BRING ME TO THIS WORLD........i hate to be alive facing all these STUPID problems and stress....i veri tire.......who can take me away.....far away.........i dun wish to suffer from this pain anymore.............................
Here @ 1:32 AM
Monday, September 20, 2004
I AM TIRE.............
Im tired of pretending, that everything is right, everything is ok!, its not and neither am i, i cant go on living how i am, smiling and laughing when on the inside im died, tired of trying to make everyone around me happy.IS TAT wat i really wan in my life????........i dun know.........i am lost.....confuse......haiz.......if i can choose....i rather be alone.......even though i will be lonely but at least it wont be so painful as being hurt......
Here @ 11:32 PM
BIG BIG WORLD.........
I'm a big big girl in a big big world It's not a big big thing if you leave me but I do do feel that I too too will miss you much miss you much... I can see the first leaf falling it's all yellow and nice It's so very cold outside like the way I'm feeling inside I'm a big big girl in a big big world It's not a big big thing if you leave me but I do do feel that I too too will miss you much miss you much... Outside it's now raining and tears are falling from my eyes why did it have to happen why did it all have to end I'm a big big girl in a big big world It's not a big big thing if you leave me but I do do feel that I too too will miss you much miss you much... I have your arms around me ooooh like fire but when I open my eyes you're gone... I'm a big big girl in a big big world It's not a big big thing if you leave me but I do do feel that I too too will miss you much miss you much... I'm a big big girl in a big big world It's not a big big thing if you leave me but I do feel I will miss you much miss you much...
Here @ 11:13 PM
LEAVE ME ALONE
The sun goes black the trees turn browni am alone no ones aroundi sit here and thinkthis world is full of beatiful things......i just cant seem to find them
Please tell me your happy, tell me your ok, tell me exactly about your day. i need a laugh, i dont want to cry, i just don't want to live a lie. So make me smile one last time, tell me that your doing fine.
It scares me when I understand,It scares me when I don't, It scares me when I'm not depressed,It scares me when I am,It scares me when I can feel the pain,But it scares me most when I'm numb.
When you're alone, it's better because nobody knows you.When no one's your friend, its better because nobody leaves you.
Here @ 1:07 AM
Saturday, September 18, 2004
Ji Shi Ben- sung by Kelly Chan
Fan kai sui shen xi dai de ji shi ben
Letting go of the dairy that I wrote in before sleep.
Xie zhe xu duo shi dou shi guan yu ni
Primarily everything I wrote is about you
Ni tao yan bei leng luo xi guan bei shou hou
Your hatred has calmed, habits has passed.
Ji mo cai chao wo
Loneliness is calling me.
Wo kan jian zi ji xie xia de xin qing
I can see the emotions I have written down.
Ba zi ji fang zai bei wei de hou tou
I have put myself in the background
Deng ni deng tai jiu xiang ni lei hui liu
Waiting for you too long, thinking of you makes the tears fall.
Er xin fu kuai le shi shen me
What is ?Fortunate and Happiness??
Ai de tong le tong de ku le
Love until it hurts, hurts until I cried.
Ku de lei le ri ji ben li yue yue zhi zhuo
All cried out and tired, I would still have to get on with my day.
Ji zai zhe ni de hao, xiang shang yin de du yao
Only wish you well, (think the sounds are from you ?)
Ta fan fu pian zhe wo
But it constantly deceives me.
Ai de tong le tong de ku le
Love until it hurts, hurts until I cried.
Ku de lei le mao dun xin li zong shi qiang qiu
All cried out and tired, the dilemma (irritation) in my heart still exists.
Quan zi ji yao fang shou bi shang yan rang ni zou
pleading with myself to let go, closes my eyes and let you go.
Shao diao ri ji chong xin lai guo
and take the days and start a new day.
Here @ 11:42 AM
Friday, September 17, 2004
cOld cold Cold.......DuLL dUll day........
todae raining again....so cold...lucky i wear long sleeves lolz.......sianz ar.......todae UM presentation i present like shit.......tok craps....so chiam....LOL....well must jia you lor....haiz....well..i change my blog song again.....DIDO white flag......hmmm nice song hahah......although heard liao will wanna sleep but.....is quite meaningful....i like the tune.....heehee........hmmm i dun know why...i so different from others sometime.....i like to listen to sad songs.......hahaha well maybe i am a negative minded ger ba.......hahah OK i will try to be positive de OK....lol......dun know why tonite so energetic....maybe coz i afternoon got slept for 1 hour...heehee....haiz......yesterdae "he" sms me a forward message.....>> no feeling>> all dead liao......glad that is has finally been over.......ZHONG QIU JIE cuming le......still remember last year i spent my lantern festival wif "him" and some frenz....hmmm......i guess this year I WONT BE ALONE....hahaha coz i got LINGLI and MEIYI ma......LOL......even dun have him.....PENG YE HUI HEN KUAI LE........wo yao xing fu.......he oso must................................................................................
Here @ 1:15 AM
Thursday, September 16, 2004
Dido---White Flag
I know you think that I shouldn't still love you, I'll tell you that.But if I didn't say it, well I'd still have felt it where's the sense in that?
I promise I'm not trying to make your life harder Or return to where we were
Well I will go down with this ship And I won't put my hands up and surrender There will be no white flag above my door I'm in love and always will be
I know I left too much mess and destruction to come back again And I caused but nothing but trouble I understand if you can't talk to me again And if you live by the rules of "it's over" then I'm sure that that makes sense
Well I will go down with this ship And I won't put my hands up and surrender There will be no white flag above my door I'm in love and always will be
And when we meet Which I'm sure we will All that was then Will be there still I'll let it pass And hold my tongue And you will think That I've moved on....
Well I will go down with this ship And I won't put my hands up and surrender There will be no white flag above my door I'm in love and always will be
Well I will go down with this ship And I won't put my hands up and surrender There will be no white flag above my door I'm in love and always will be
Well I will go down with this ship And I won't put my hands up and surrender There will be no white flag above my door I'm in love and always will be
Here @ 8:02 PM
UM.....UM......UM.....i DUN LIKE.....UM
Sianz ar........so tire now.....just finish my UM.......HISTORY HISTORY......i hate it lehz...no choice oso.....i like this course so must strive on......lolz....sianz....anyway........i never regret joining this course la........coz....i met alots of NICE ppl........hee.......MY CLASSMATES are all so WONDERFUL........lol........hahahaha.........glad to be in group 10 worz.......I AM SO TIRE...keep on yawning lolz.....oh ya.........i own KELLY one chocolate....tomolo must gif him....HEY thKs KENNETH!!!! for the "close passage" arhz.....lolz...... k la late le......i wanna be pig liaoz......go orhz orhz.........ZHANG JIE oso BETTER SLEEP EARLY.......lolz........NITE NITE........
Here @ 1:00 AM
Tuesday, September 14, 2004
A NEW DAY.......MONDAY....
well....todae i late for lecture.....lolz....no choice i live too far le......haiz.....cannot call the train to move faster oso wat....lolz....sianz ar sianz.....wo jue de wo yue lai yue mei you yong....lolz....so stupid lehz......well.......cant help la...born to be stupid....oso cannot blame ma....dui ma???......hmmm.....got a few times wanna tell him my feelings..........but.......just dun dare to la........i no courage....to love againz.........maybe.......i should give up ba........i think i should......k la
late le wan an
Here @ 1:03 AM
Sunday, September 12, 2004
Hua Xiang
Feng, mei you fang xiang de chui lai
Yu, ye gen zhao bei shang qi lai
Mei you ren neng gao su wo
Ai shi zai shen me shi hou qiao qiao zou kai
Feng, ban zhao hua xie le you kai
Yu, ba yan lei luo xiang da hai
Xian zai de wo zai ming bai
Ni bao zhao zi se de meng xuan ze deng dai
Ji yi shi zhen zhen hua xiang
Wo me shuo hao shui dou bu neng wang
Shou zhao hei ye de yang guan
Nan guo que jia zhuang jian qiang
Deng dai de ri zi li, ni bi wo yong gan
Ji yi shi zhen zhen hua xiang
Yi qi zou guo yong yuan bu neng wang
Ni de wen rou shi yang guang
Ba wo de wei lai tian men
Ti xing wo hua xiang chang zai, jiu xiang wo de ai
Ji yi shi zhen zhen hua xiang
Yi ji zou guo yong yuan bu neng wang
Ni de wen rou shi yang guang
Ba wo de wei lai tian men
Feng chui qi hua de wiang wei, jiu xiang ni de ai
Here @ 11:45 PM
I CARRY YOUR HEART WITH ME
i carry your heart with me,
i carry it in my heart and i'm never without it.
anywhere i go, you go, my dear.
and whatever is done, by only me, is your doing, my darling.
i fear no fear for you are my fate, my sweet.
i want no world for beautiful, you are my world my true.
it's you or whatever a moon has always meant,
and whatever a sun will always sing is you.
here is the deepest secret nobody knows
here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the tree called life
which grows higher and higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide
and this is the wonder that is keeping the stars apart
i carry your heart,
i carry it in my heart
Here @ 11:35 PM
Xing Fu De Shun Jian
Dang qiu tian,
zai lai de shi hou
Ni yao wo,
xiao zhe qu ai qu yong you.
Jiu suan shi,
zai duan zhan de wen rou
Neng chong feng,
zhe ren ci yi zu gou.
Ke zhi dao,
you xie shi you xie ren
Ting liu zai,
fa sheng de na tian bu ken zou.
Kan shi guang de can ku,
she bu de bei yi wang
Zhe ming yun, wo heng man zu,
you ni pei ban de xing fu.
Wei ni da kai, shi jian de suo, rang ai zi you,
bu bei ta shu fu
Shi ku guo, ye zheng zha guo,
xin rang tong nian guo.
Deng na yi tian, luo ye jing jing piao yan qian,
yi bu zai shang bei
Yong heng zhong yi xiang xin le xing fu de shun jian.
Wei ni da kai, shi jian de suo, rang ai zi you,
bu bei ta shu fu
Mei yi miao, dou bu hou hui, wo pei ni ti hui.
Guo qu wei lai qing qing chong die,
qing yuan liang tian tian de yan lei
Gai xie jing shen yi ni zai,
xing fu de shun jian, yi wei...
Here @ 10:18 PM
wO xIaNg Wo sHi aI sHaNg Le XuN yI cAo....
Xun yi cao de hua yu shi......deng dai ai qing.....hen gan ren de ai qing gu shi......
the weekend....i have been watching this show call LAVENDER....so touching....and i cry...lolz......it let me realise the.......courage to love...and live....ZHI YAO YONG LI HU XI....JIU NENG KAN JIAN QI JI......i will always remember de.........
Here @ 10:12 PM
Thursday, September 09, 2004
ToO bUsY....... -_-'"
haiz....i never update for 2 days le....coz too busy liaoz.....busying wif ASSIGNMENTS....sigh...so tire....hmm....hmm...dun know wat to write oso lor....just suddenly wondering how "he" has been.....well frenz out there dun worry...i have already get over him....okie....hmmm i will find a guy 10 0000000times better den him de la....lolz....my life now is so different den last time....too busy to find one now.....everyday piled with work and work!!! lolz....hmmm just hope that "he" is fine out there ba.....though i promise myself wont wanna botther about him ever again...but after all he is still a frenz i should say....a frenz that i will told myself that i wont care for him too much....yupz.....just hope "he" is doing fine.....Just hope that GOD will take care of everyone....regardless is good or bad....DA JIA YI DING YAO XING FU........YING WEI....SHEN MING SHI NAN MO DE ZHEN GUI.............
Here @ 4:39 PM
Monday, September 06, 2004
RaInInG dAy..........sO COldzzZZ.............
wOw....todae rain till so heavy...i was like shivering the whole afternoon...keke......well todae quite sianz...coz the Um lecture is so boring lor........tok abt HISTORY..........really hen wu liao......lucky got tricia sitting next to me and tok....or else...i will...bore to death...lolx...haiz...i got more and more works to do AGAIN.....gonna sleep late everydae le.....I GOING TO BECUM PANDA LIAO LORz......hahaha.......sianz....now take break so write my blog...later going to do DF liaoz....sianz man!!!! but busy oso good la.......so i wont anyhow think........later spoil my mood again...keke.......OMG he really look like ZZC...(the side view)...lolz.....but....haha....he is not the one la....u all should know........k la...wan an...bee gonna go do work liaoz.......NITE NITE
Here @ 10:52 PM
Sunday, September 05, 2004
Kiss - Because I'm A Girl (English)
i just cant understand the hearts of men they tell you they want you and then they leave you this is the first time, you're special i believed those words and i was so happy you should have told me you didn't like me any more but i couldn't see that and you just rushed me although i will curse you i'll still miss you since i am a girl, to whom love is everything i heard that if you give up things too easily to a man, he will get bored with you i don't think this is wrong a girl says that she will never befooled again but she will fall in love again you should have told me you didn't like me any more but i couldn't see that and you just rushed me although i will curse you i'llstill miss you since i am a girl, to whom love is everything [narration] Hey babe the pain it's not enough to describe how i feel we were so happy together but i know now i've been blind you told me that youd never let me down whenever i needed you you'd always be here i can forgive but i cant forget even though you hurt me i still love you i still love you don't take advantage of a girl'swillingness to do anything for love and her caring instinct i didn't know that to be born as a girl and to be loved was so hard although i will curse you i'll still miss you since i am a girl, to whom love is everything although i will curse you i'll still miss you since i am a girl, to whom love iseverything
Here @ 6:44 PM
WHERE IS EVERYONE??
sigh.....peng is lost...in my own world.....i miss my netball frenz....haiz....if that time nv quarrel...we will still veri veri close....i wish i can turn back time......i wish lorz......but....haiz....hope they will feel the same way as me....
todae i saw the JAY ZHOU---jie kou lyric...suddenly thought oh HIM again...the meaning in the songs is so suitable for him i should say...but.....i wont be xin luan again......haiz............... too late to turn back liao.....too late le....
Here @ 6:27 PM
Saturday, September 04, 2004
Boring Day.......-_-'''
Sianz....todae so boring....stay at home and rot...lolz...and i never done much of my work oso...keke....feeling guilty....well...at night...went to my ah ma house....now den came home.....i ate so full there....keke.....haiz....sianz ar sianz ar....got to go sch on mondae le....no mood to go back at all....i still in the HOLIDAY MOOD sia......hahaha.....wonder hows meiyi...ling li and han..doing....guess they must be as busy as me ba....hmmm maybe i more slack den them lor...lolz....i getting lazier...and lazier....hahaha...MUST WAKE UP LIAO.....k la i end here....got to go do work le....wan an....
Here @ 10:00 PM
JAY ZHOU-----JIE KOU
fan zhe wo men de zhao pian / xiang nian ruo yin ruo xian
Flipping through our photographs, thoughts of [you] are visible yet invisible
qu nian de dong tian / wo men xiao de hen tian
Last year's winter, we laughed very sweetly
kan zhe ni ku qi de lian / dui zhe wo shuo zai jian
Watching your tearstained face, telling me goodbye
lai bu ji ting jian / ni yi zou de hen yuan
[I] have yet to hear it when you've already walked so far
ye xu ni yi jing fang qi wo / ye su yi jing hen nan hui tou
Perhaps you have already given up on me, perhaps it is already very difficult to turn back
wo zhi dao shi zi ji cuo guo / qing zai gei wo yi ge li you shuo ni bu ai wo
I know it's all my fault, please give me another reason, say you don't love me
jiu suan shi wo bu dong / neng bu neng yuan liang wo
Even if I don't understand, can [you] forgive me?
qing bu yao ba fen shou dang zuo ni de qing qiu
Please don't use parting (breakup) as your request
wo zhi dao jian chi yao zou / shi ni shou shang de jie kou
I know wanting to go is your wound's excuse
qing ni hui tou / wo hui pei ni yi zhi zou dao zui hou
[Can] you please turn back, I will accompany you until the very end
jiu suan mei you jie guo / wo ye neng go cheng shou
Even if there is no conclusion, I can still endure
wo zhi dao ni de tong / shi wo gei de cheng nuo
I know your pain is the promise I gave
ni shuo gei guo wo zong rong / chen mo shi yin wei bao rong
You said [you] gave me tolerance, and silence was because of acceptance
ru guo yao zou / qing ni ji de wo / ru guo nan guo / qing ni wang le wo
If [you] want to go, please remember me, if [you] feel sad, please forget me
Here @ 1:19 PM
Friday, September 03, 2004
98 DEGREES - Why (Are We Still Friends) Lyrics
We do almost everything that lovers do
And that’s why it’s hard, just to be friends with you
Every time your heart is broken by the fool
I want you to know that it hurts me too
It’s hard to wipe your tears away (tears away)
Knowing that you should be with me
Now tell me why
[CHORUS:]
Why – why are we still friends
When everything says
We should be more than we are
And tell me why every time I find
Someone that I like
We always end up just being friends (Just Being Friends)
I would hate for you to find somebody new
Who you really love, cause it would mean losing you
But am I a fool girl not to say
If I’m always scared I’ll lose you anyway
Somehow somewhere I’ve got to choose (got to choose)
No matter if it’s win or lose
Now tell me why
[CHORUS]
I don’t wanna be like your brother
I don’t wanna be your best friend
I only wanna be your lover
When will this end
If I told you that I wanna be in your life
Then you could be
Here @ 10:10 PM
Here @ 9:00 PM
OMG......i have been creating my blog the whole dae...lolz.......finally finsh liao.......so happy....keke.......me yesterdae went to SENTOSA wif my NEW gang....hmmm it was quite fun...keke.....me and amy first time went for kayaking.....hahaha..and we manage to taste the SEA WATER...which was damn SALTY...lolz......but it is was FUN!!!!!! lolz......Todae is fridae...which means.......my term break is gonna end le.....haiz......i will be covered wif ASSIGNMENTS and PROJECTS againz......sigh...TIME PASSES SO FAST......well i started to miss my frenz even more hahaha.......hope to catch up wif them soon.......hee...... THREE LITTLE PIGS... & FAITH FAMILY.........wo yi shen zhong jue bu hui wan ji de!!!!!!!!!! MISS YOU GALS>>>>> NETBALL>>>>> YS, C, J, LL,MY,JH,BP......................................miss u all lots.......
Here @ 8:50 PM
